Belated Blog Birthday
Happy {Belated} Birthday to my blog!!!!
September 29, 2008 - first blog post.
For my first post in God knows how long…I’ve decided I’ve needed to say something. It’s taken me awhile to formulate what I was feeling inside, and thinking in my mind, to what I am about to articulate in clear words.
I don’t post nearly as much as I used to. Sad, but true fact. I don’t post nearly as much as I’d like to. Again, sad, but true fact. And although I’ve been crazy busy out-of-my-mind kind of busy this past year, I have reached the conclusion that a whole other reason has played into why I draft posts, but don’t post them often. Or why I think of millions of ideas for posts, but never post them. I’m trying too hard to make my blog perfect.
Allow me to explain…
When I first started writing this blog, it was just a place for me to put pictures of cute things or something pretty, a place to share my thoughts, ideas, and opinions, a place to call my own—Laura’s digital scrapbook of life. But somehow along the way, I gained tons of followers, and while that’s great, it does put some pressure to produce ”good” content. And not just good content, it’s gotta be GREAT! I see all these other bloggers with super awesome, well thought out posts and graphic design that blows me away and…I wanted to be that way. I still want to be that way, but I realize that I’ve got to be me. I cannot scrutinize every post I want to put up for fear that it’s not like the bloggers I deeply admire. I think I got caught up in this idea that some very lucky bloggers get paid for what they do, *full-time*, and show up at fashion week in the front row and get photo opps with magazines, designers, and big name retail chains. I wanted to be that and the fear of NOT being that paralyzed me. How will I ever even try to get to that point if I don’t post anything? I have realized this, the error of my ways, and decided to put a stop to this. I wanted to make this announcement as well because perhaps someone else is feeling like that out there, and maybe they will understand where I’m coming from. Or, even if you haven’t experienced what I have felt, perhaps this will be a decent read for you and let you in to the lives of others. I still have goals and dreams for my blog (and my life in general, but that’s another story…), but I realize that I’ve got to get MOVING in order to do that. I cannot sit and stare at my blog and keep hoping that it’ll look cooler or that I’ll have H&M call me to do a photoshoot (haha). And another thing, when I read other awesome blogs, I cannot sit there wishing mine was more like theirs. I have promised myself to read blogs I enjoy and not get hell-bent over the idea that they are more successful than mine.
Besides,The whole point why I started this blog was just for me. When I first posted, of course I had no followers, just like everyone else. For awhile, I only had about 20 or so, but then it blew up and now the numbers slowly creep down. I won’t worry about that.
So cheers to my blog being around for 3 grand years, and many more! Here’s to releasing that (blog)self-conscious, being me, and posting away! :)
♥♥♥Laura
